Eyelids are drooping

Sometimes like tonight,
My mind frightens me,
It's black and blue,
I'm edgy,

Eyelids are drooping,
I'm anxious,
Colours are fading,
Hope and opportunity,
Power and wanting,
Have disappeared.

Gone.

What scares me more,
Is that no one knows where,
Because I'm too scared to tell them,
And not sure I will,
Find them myself.